What I see is all there is (WISIATI). I see a messy home, I see a messy me. I see me procrastinating. I see so much work to do on my van and on me. I am so slow. I see failure to work hard. I feel tired and hungry. I feel lazy and cold. I feel a failure................ I don't let it all get in because I focus on the positive. I see progress (despite it being slow). I see me trying. I see me staying focused on staying strong with climbing. I stay in touch with a couple good friends.
What you see is all there is (WYSIATI). I believe it! What we see affects our mood and our thoughts. It affects everything! I need to surround myself with more positives. I need to leave here I should work faster.
I write this publicly because I want someone to care. I want me to care more. To be stronger and make life better. I struggle. I feel I am progressing, but it's so fucking slow.